Anxious In The City

“I wrote this last week, but couldn’t bring myself to send it. Today though the anxiety is so bad I had to share it somewhere.
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I work in the city…I have done for the past 6 years. I loved my job at the beginning. Thrived off the pressure, the number crunching, the highs of winning another contract. But with the highs came huge lows.
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I’ve started calling in sick because I can’t face going in. I’m so scared of telling my boss that I’m not coping. I worked hard to get into the company and don’t want to lose my job, but my anxiety is so bad now, I just can’t do it anymore. I feel a failure…from the outside I look fine. Suited and booted, typical 30 something city worker, but I just want to scream that I’m not OK.”
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Anonymous, London