Blood On My Toes

“Yes I made it, but it’s almost cost me my life.

I was obsessed. You have to be to make it to the top. A childhood lost, but I didn’t care. I loved the feeling of being free when I danced on stage.

But it’s only now that my body is hurting everyday that I realise I will be paying for it for the years to come.

I’ve gone days eating the bare minimum, I’ve danced when my toes are red raw, and I’ve painted the smile on over the tears. I became an actress.

I’m getting older and have had to face the harsh reality that my body is not desirable to the ballet world. Rejection after rejection. I just can’t take it anymore.

My days are numbered, but it might just be in time to save my mind.”

Anonymous, location unknown.