My ED Makes Me Feel Alive

“I was sent here by my friend ***** who has helped me these past few months as I’ve just been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. You know her from your work at Monte Nido and she recommend I express my feelings as this is quite new to me and I don’t really have an outlet.
 ‘m 27 and as a man my issue isn’t quite as accepted as I think it is for women. The last few therapy sessions I’ve been to, encouraged to express why I feel I am the way I am and all I ever come back to is the sentiment on my Jigsaw. The only emotion I have towards my AN is that whenever I feel like I’m at rock bottom it’s the time when I most feel alive. It wasn’t that hard for me to come to terms with. If something else comes up I’ll maybe send another one.
 
Thanks.

Anonymous, California, US