Healing Is A Process

“2 years, 4 months and 6 days ago I lost my mom to breast cancer.

She was never really in my life. My father was abusive and she and him both went to prison when I was 4. When I was 12 she came back into my life when she was diagnosed. During the time she was sick, I began to experience a mild form of depression.

About one year later she died. March 31, 2016. At first, I was frozen in shock. A few days later, the pain began, I was crying constantly for months and months on end. About a year later, I developed anorexia, began cutting and I’ve attempted suicide 9 times.

I’m almost 2 months clean of cutting now, and it’s been just over 10 months since my last suicide attempt. It still hurts, a lot. But I know she’s in my heart.

For the longest time I lost faith in God and now I’m closer to God that I’ve ever been in my life. I couldn’t have gotten this far without him. I’m still healing, it’s a process. But there is hope. Never give up.

Please post this. I hope that my story may help others find peace.”

Kayla Macklin, North Carolina, USA