Hiding And Pretending

“Monday morning dread.

I feel sick on Sunday night when I know that I have to pull the mask out again.

I’ve always been the successful one out of the two of us.

Really though I’m riddled with anxiety and I can’t hide behind my career anymore.

I feel guilt and shame…and that’s what’s kept me pretending for so long.

If I don’t do something it’s all going to come crashing down.

I know I’ve got to talk to my partner about it, but just writing this is the first step.”

Joanne, London