I Fake Crying

“My parents weren’t there when I was young and I was an only child so I fake cried just to get attention. Thing is I still do it to this day and I’m in my twenties for gods sake. Its like the only safe place I know because it gets me the attention I need. My ex boyfriend didn’t want to know about my self harm, my depression or my eating disorders, but his achilles heel was that he couldn’t see me cry so the cycle carried on. I hate myself for it and I know how stupid and manipulative it might sound but it’s the only thing I know that has helped me. It’s harder thing to admit than you think.”

Susan Porter, Scotland