I Miss Days Like These

“I don’t know if you will ever see this, and truthfully it doesn’t even matter. I just needed to share it for myself.

I have never really talked about your eating disorder to anyone. As a mom it’s been a total nightmare to watch you destroy yourself. I have felt powerless, nothing I ever say makes any difference. All I have ever wanted to do is to protect you.

I don’t know what happened. You used to love helping me out in the kitchen, I miss these days.

I have spent many nights tossing and turning asking myself where I went wrong, why haven’t I been able to protect you from this monster inside you? I don’t have the answers, but I do know that I will never give up on you. I know you have it in you. Please keep fighting.”

Mom of Jamie, Chicago