I Think I’m A Dry Drunk

“I’ve been sober for 5 months, two weeks and 3 days now.

I have to count every day; it helps to see how far I’ve come. I was a horrid person when I was drunk.

I go to my AA meetings regularly and speak to my sponsor every day.

But the more sober days I have, the more pain I feel inside. It’s like the drink numbed everything, and now all the feelings are flooding me. I thought that once I stopped drinking, everything would be OK.

Turns out it’s not so easy. Anyone else out there feel the same? I’m getting desperate and really don’t want to use again.”

Jo Linden, Los Angeles