Recovery Is Possible

“Having an eating disorder is all consuming, debilitating & you think you are never going to be able to climb out of the black hole. When I was very mentally ill, I thought I was completely alone & that none of my friends would ever understand or have the same problems. I now talk about my experience of anorexia & depression & I know that other people have been through or are going through something similar.
 
Life in recovery is one of the best & happiest of feelings I can ever describe. I never imagined I would get to this point. When I was very ill, I became very dependent on a therapist and couldn’t imagine not “seeing her” as her client. I thought I would need her support forever. Thankfully I was wrong!
 Of course, there are wobbles – I still get very anxious – and there is no such thing as perfect, but I now look forward to going out for a big brunch with friends, heading to my local bakery for their delicious carrot cake, or having friends over for dinner. All without the guilt and fear. I recently squealed with excitement when I learned that my favourite bakery which serves the best doughnuts in the world had opened a cafe near my office.
 People often fear something they don’t understand, but now that we have greater understanding of it, we can have more strength to conqueror it. I urge people who are suffering from an eating disorder or any kind of mental illness to try and take a first step to tell someone – it will be the hardest thing you ever do but you might well find that you aren’t alone. Recovery IS possible – it is possible to live a life that is free of the numbers, thoughts, worries & heart pounding anxiety. Someone said that it is not a sign of weakness, but a sign you have been strong for too long.”

Miranda Bunting, London, UK