Trapped By The Clock

“My eating disorder has got me trapped in a cycle of numbers.
 I have to eat at certain times and on an even number. I feel better when I can wait until the clock is on an even number
It’s like this weird sense of satisfaction and control. I panic if I’m somewhere where I can’t see the time, and it’s becoming noticeable to others. 
Does anyone else have this problem? I really want to stop it, but don’t know how.

Josie, California